heres to you.

im flying higher than i ever have before
youve got me spinnin and twirlin and more
never thought id feel like this again
so heres to the good now and the bad then

heres to finding that one who can
give you butterflies when youre used to lies
heres to the one with a gentle hand
that heals the pain when they say your name

and my life as a mess before you said hello
now youve cleaned it up, shining from head to toe
never thoughtid feel like this with you
so heres to no more gray and skies of blue

heres to finding that one who can
give you butterflies when youre used to lies
heres to the one with a gentle hand
that heals the pain when they say your name

its like a smile after a tear
i know its crazy, but i need you near
just dont let go of what weve got
my heart is twisted in a knot
but dont let go of what weve got

so heres to finding the one that can
make your heart beat fast from the start
and heres to the one with a gentle hand
that holds you close, loves you more than most

heres to finding that one who can
give you butterflies when youre used to lies
heres to the one with a gentle hand
that heals the pain when they say your name

hope.

i dont sleep anymore, its been days
staying up late, until i see the suns rays
i dont stay up thinking of the way things could be
i dont lie awake wishing that someone would help me

i guess im just broken beyond repair
messing up so bad; i cant even begin to share
i guess ive just been running far away from life
i guess i just still havent quite gotten it right

i sit and hold on tight, through everything
grasping on to hope, like a piece of string
i sit and push the every single thought and pain away
i sit and watch as everything i love, turns to gray

a girl.

the beauty as the night stills
keeps her warm, though her body chills
the stars above her shine so bright
giving sun light, though it is night
a gentle kiss, one that thrills
a painful word, one the kills
imagination soon takes flight
nothing and no one else in sight
a moon lingers over the hills
illuminating a girl in frills
she sits alone, no room for fright
no time for tears, try as she might
a poison kicks in, she slowly stills
no more warmth, her body chills
the stars above her no longer bright
the peaking sunlight, gives end to night

untitled.

she follows you like a lost dog
do you care that youre in the wrong?
she smiles every time you say her name
her heart flies when you look her way

you play her like an instrument
does it make you feel like a real man?
you toy her around, like a puppet on a string
you tear her down, with the pain you bring

im trying.

You act like its a chore
To be around me
We dont talk anymore
And you cant even see

You wonder why we fight
Almost every day
You think its all right
To throw our love away

Maybe if you would try
To meet me half way
I wouldnt always cry
My pain would be at bay

So do I just let go?
Will things ever change?
I just need to know
If youre worth all the pain

Because Im not as strong
As youd like to think
I wish I was wrong
But now Im just too weak

gone.

Broken promises, truths left unsaid
I gave you everthing, my heart and soul
You threw it back, and its taking its toll

I begged you to stay, those three words to say
I needed help, but you refused to give it
So say goodbye to my love, though you wont miss it

The battles been fought, I didnt win like I'd though
Im giving up, and now you have space
Youll never again have to see my face

Dont tell me not to go, its fake, I know
Youre getting what youve wanted all along
No more stress, no bother, for I am gone

risk it.

To every beginning there is an end
This I learned from my dearest friend
She was mine from day one
But life took its course
And forever, she is gone

I learned a lesson through it all
I believe its big, though it is small
Always risk the chance of love
Even if its lost one day
Its worth it when push comes to shove

for vivi & tia...& all the others lost. RIP.

Throughout life we happen upon blessings
In different forms, different ways,
In different places with different names
She was caring and joyous, and she was one
Of life's little blessings, until her life was done

But the Lord has his way with things
And so Ill tell you of another
A friend, a sister, and to many a mother
Two regular stories of lives well lived
Two tragic endings and heartache to go with

But when you start to cry, know an angel sings
For thousands have been blessed by two
And they will live forever in me and you
In our hearts, they'll stay the same
Though they're gone, their memory will remain