I have a favor to ask you.

Let me ask you something. If you dont like things getting personal, stop reading. But, you should give this a chance. Maybe youre someone who doesnt let yourself feel or think a certain thin because of past experiences. Maybe you dont let yourself be happy because when youve done that before, youve only ended up sad or maybe you just convinced yourself you were unworthy of the luxuries of happiness. Or maybe you refuse to love. Maybe you push people away at the fear of your hert being shattered and trampled on. But what I want to ask you is very important. For just one day, or an hour even, I want you to let yourself feel what you stoppped letting yourself feel. My depression has enveloped my emotions, has taken them over. I rarely feel anything other than pain, which I have grown numb to. But every day, lately, I allow myself to love and be happy for as long as possible. Im fighting my fears.
Now, you may be reading this saying "Im not afraid of those feelings, Im just not going to let the same things happen again." Be strong and fight it if it happens again; thats what I have to say to that. I know its eaiser to just avoid it, but if you avoid it, youll end up missing out on so much. We have emotions because they're essential to living. Theyre a gift, a blessing.
Love, in all forms, is the most astounding feeling in the world. It can create so many other emotions, as well as form from so many other emotions. Hearts break, but there will ALWAYS be someone there it put it back together, willing to even make the glue to do so.
So, if youve turn off your heart, reach in and turn it back on. If youve hidden it on a shelf, packed it away into the back of your closet, its time for some spring cleaning (yes, in the middle of fall). Let yourself feel. Let your heart beat the way its suppose to beat, And if it bleeds again, just remember all hearts bleed, but they beat, race and quicken too. If it bleeds, remember you will always find someone with a bandaid and a kiss to make it feel better. So, please, try this for me. It could work if you let it, if you put enough faith in it. Love can create miracls. Happiness comes from love. So, dont be the one to stop a miracle, and dont be the one to stop a smile.