I confess, that at this moment, I want to hurt her so much. Shes a lying bitch. Shes selfish and I havnt gone a week with out her hurting me through out the whole time Ive known her. The worst part is, I could be just as bad. Yeah Ive lied to her. But SERIOUSLY?!?! She lies to everyone! Like, its pathetic. I honestly do not want to give my heart to anyone, I do not want to give my trust to anyone ever again. And she has A LOT to do with that. "Oh, I love you so much. Bury my heart in the sand. It will always beat for you. The memory of your eyes is all that keeps me alive. I love you Lauren Beth *insert my last name here* and I wasnt lying when I said Im playing for keeps. You can always come back to me. I only want you. I cried because I was leaving you."
*silence**thinks**lightbulb*
LIES LIES LIES LIES LIES LIES LIES LIES LIES LIES LIES LIES LIES LIES LIES.
Shes a fucking liar. And you know what else? I dont love her anymore, haha. My god, how could I ever have thought you always love someone once you start loving them? Wow. Honestly, I dont love her. I dont want her in my life, and I wish I had never met her.
Ive said all this before...but it always hurt just a little bit to say it.... Not this time. I smiled the whole time I wrote this. Except for the moment where I thought about how much shes hurt me. But I didnt let that get to me. I remembered that shes not worth my time, that I deserve so much better, and I will do better. I wont ever let someone have the best of me. Never again. I wont ever truly hate her, but I can swear that I will never ever love her. Not at all. Not ever again.
& now, a quick thanks to megan and kourtney. you guys are awesome <3
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