daddys never at my meets.

I need to write about something that is hurting me. I run track, my best friends know this, my family knows this, people I barely know, know this. Its about the only thing Im truly good at. When my friends have games, matches or any sort of competitions, I try my hardest to go and watch them; to support them. But see, though I continuously went out of my way to go to every one of a best friend's wrestling matches, he is too busy getting high to come watch and support me. That pisses me off.
But what really hurts, is every year Ive done track, and my dad always finds excuses to not show up, or he just doesnt show up because he is home watching TV or sitting on his computer. My mom goes to every one of my meets, she takes off work on tuesdays just so she can watch my races. And that honestly means a lot to me. But my dad...he doesnt ever show up unless I beg him or tell him he has to be there. It hurts that he wont support me, it makes me feel like Im not good enough for him. Its as if even though Im doing something productive and active, its not the production he wants me to make, its not the activities he wants me to take part in. It hurts me that he cant take time out of his day to watch his daughter do something shes good at. He doesnt show up, has no support. Sure, he asks how I did, but if he really cared, why doesnt he just show up at the meet? Especially when the meet is only 3 minutes away. I dont know where this is going. I just needed to say how much it hurts me that he doesnt support me, doesnt watch my meets. Im really good at it, and I feel like he doesnt see that. Ive had my name in the paper for it, and he doesnt realize it. He doesnt understand that this is something Im good at, its something I can do, and its something I enjoy immensely. It just tears me apart a little bit that he doesnt support and watch my races.