Ive been in two "real" relationships. But Ive also had other girls who Ive had flings with. First, there was Penny. She broke my heart. My next girlfreind was Aubrey. We were only together for a month, and it wasn't much of a relationship. Then there was Maria. I broke her heart. She was the first heart I broke. Then there was Kyri. I never hated myself so much as the day I broke her heart. Then there was Ash, and I broke her heart, too. I shattered it. Then Penny showed up again...guess whos heart got broken that time? Hers. I left her, because of one stupid fight. And now, she thinks Im still interested, but how do I tell her Im not? Itll hurt her again. And then theres Heather. Ive never really been protective with any girls Ive liked, but with Heather, I get the urge to hurt anyone that hurts her, and I just want to protect her. But she doesnt know that Ill hurt her, so I stand off, I dont let her get close to me. Because all I am is a heartbreaker. Ive had my heart broken a few times, but in all reality, I deserved it every time. Because I broke their heart first.
So its no wonder I fear this new relationship that is starting. This new flame, that is burning bright reds and yellows and oranges. Its such a beautiful flame, and I dont want it to go out. But knowing me, somehow, Ill pour water all over it. So understand, when I start to pull away, thats just because I dont want to hurt anyone ever again. They call me heartbreaker, but Im out to prove them wrong. Once a heartbreaker...not always a heartbreaker. I hope...
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